Tuesday, February 17, 2009


Myboyfriend sent me a Valentine's Day card from Afghanistan. Because of the distance, I just got it today. He's sent me two cards and had flowers delivered to my house in the 2 1/2 months that he's been gone. He is such a blessing in my life. I love him with all of my heart and would marry him tomorrow if he asked. My struggle is that he appears to feel the same way about me, yet that seems impossible. No one should ever have so many good feelings towards me. It will make more sense when I tell you what he wrote in the card. There is reference to Biblical scripture. Some readers may be offended or not agree with it, but it is very important in our relationship, so it will be included in this post.

His words inside the card:

A wise man once told me that someone should not need a hallmark holiday to express his/her feelings for that special someone, but should do it regularly and randomly. I would agree, but didn't want you to feel left out when I am on the other side of the world. :)
1 Peter 3:3-5 "Your beauty should not come form outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight."
I am continually reminded and thank the Lord that He has blessed me with both. You are and have been an answer to my prayers. I love you!

Can that really be true about me/us? Can someone really, geniunely feel that way and not be expecting anything in return? I don't deserve that kind of love and unconditional acceptance from another human, but he continues to give it. I do not ask him for it. It never crossed my mind that someone would want to give that to me. It's an amazing feeling but very hard to reconcile at the same time. He knows the basics of my past, and he's okay with it. He doesn't know about us being DID. That might change his mind? Right? This has got to be too good to be true. No way something this good and this wonderful can be happening to me...

Can someone pinch me?

1 comment:

  1. No pinching needed...it's true and it's wonderful that someone is finally showing you what you have deserved all along. Remember, you were born of good and light and while someone tried to snuff that out, it is always there and people like your guy, they see it and bring it out even though you try to hide it. Lulz.